Welcome to my Journal~

Hello everyone, welcome to my journal.
I want to introduce myself..

My name is Andez, or maybe you can call me Kenken like my username in Livejournal. I am Chinese Indonesian. I feel proud with my Chinese and Indonesian blood. I was raised in both culture, Chinese and Indonesian. Since I was child, I have obsession to go to Japan. I like their culture and history (of course after some years, I love their boys and girls too..XD). I am university student, majoring in Financial Management. Thanks Buddha, because I am in Japan now as Exchange student to learn Japanese language and Japanese culture for a year. Before you mistaken me, I will tell you that I am a BOY. I love Johnny's Entertainment boy especially Yamashita Tomohisa  and Chinen Yuuri. I love traveling, studying, watching, and reading. I can say that I am a kind person, but if you bother me on purpose, I can angry, very angry, and maybe out of your expectation..XD. I love to be friended with everyone. Just leave comment here, introduce yourself, and why you want to be my friend. And maybe I can't reply you soon, since there are too many people who added me as their friend. But please be patience. If you add me as your friend, but you never introduce yourself to me, what kind of friendship that we can make? The beginning of friendship is knowing each other, right?

Let's talk more? ;)


It's double celebration!

These 2 days are the most busy days for me..LOL
I have to prepare my birthday and my lovely boy birhday, Chinen Yuuri.
I am Nov 29, and he is Nov 30...not many times!
But I feel happy doing this, so HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHINEN!!

You are 18歳 now. 2 years again, we can go to 居酒屋 together and drinking 酒! You can go to the club but don't get into it, 居酒屋 is far better..:) We can chat together while drinking 酒 or 焼酎 . After a bit drunk, we can go for 二回目 in カラオケ, I can sing many 嵐's songs, so yeah, let's 盛り上がる together!
You will graduate in next year's April, right? I hope you can continue your study to university! If you like Geography, please take major Geography in university, or maybe you can take Art as a major. But the most important don't waste your brain.

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Hmm...time flies so fast. I am still remember that one year ago, I was celebrating my birthday in Japan. and my Japanese friends celebrate my birthday until 3 times in different days! It was unforgettable moment from me, the sweetest gift in my life. I had the best part in my life when I was in Japan. Thanks to Buddha, He gave me that chance. I just pray He can give the another chance for me to visit my dreamland again.

One year ago, yes, the best part of my life. Even I face complicated problem in the end of dream. I experience the times when I feel so negative, feel no one can help me, feel each the way out has closed suddenly for me. I am so stupid. In the hard times, I got so many support especially from my friends. I feel touched, and yes I realized I am so stupid. I realized that I so negative at that time, and in fact there is no use of negative thinking. When you think everything negatively, you just invite more negative things into your life. And I experienced it, really. Many negative things come respectively in my life at that time, and I become so frustrated and more more negative. Then, I reached the point when I realize that "I can't change anything with negative thinking", a friend give contribution to me reaching that enlightment. I tried to think everything positively, I believe I can face that problem, I believe I can find the exit way of this problem. I don't know whether I have become a bit mature or not, but I think I want to continue to become a positive person.

Since 2 years ago, I am always said that "I am scared to be mature". Adult world is like a dark world for me, I can not imagine the world where I have to join to society. I have to rely on myself only, it's scary, right? I see how my older sister go through many hardship after she become an adult. She is so strong, even though I know she has many problems, she resist to tell that to her family and try to rely on herself only. I speak to myself "Can I become like that, can I become a fine adult?" I experienced many hardship since I was child, yeah, maybe I am strong, but this is a new world, and this new world get closer to me (or that world has got into me?), since many people said that a boy has become an adult when they are 21 years old. I don't know if I have become an adult or not, but without I realize I have relied on myself until now. However, I just wondering if I have rely on myself with enough maturity? Now in my birthday, I hope I can increase my quality of maturity. I know people get mature slowly, with experience, with problem, and through hardship. I want become an adult who is not only mature in appearance but in mind and heart too. So, in loudly voice now I say "I AM NOT SCARED WITH MATURITY, I WILL BECOME A FINE ADULT THAT ADORED BY MANY PEOPLE".

Fandom. I think about it in very very long time. Is fandom a form of childishness? When you idolize someone (which is a boyband who has age a bit far younger from you age) in your mature age? It's not mean I feel shame to idolize someone like Chinen Yuuri or Yamashita Tomohisa, but c'mon, many people almost would say "Are you kidding me? Do you realize how old are you?". Many people would looking down on you. But I hear, if you really have get into adult world, you would forget about fandom slowly. I saw it in many of my friends. In past time, they are Kpop fans, or Laruku-fans, or an otaku. But when they entered job world, no fandom again. It's not they don't like their fandom again, but they don't have time again for fandom-ing. Even I said something like this, I am not sure whether I can leave fandom or not. I am too love Chinen and Yamapi, maybe rather than I have to leave them, I prefer to be shame. I wanna prove that I can be mature even though I am a fanboy (of Johnnys). I just feel scared whether you still want read my fanboy-ing when I become 30 years old later..XD Or maybe I just feel scared when I have become 30 years old later, all of you have left this fandom. But like Misora Hibari-san's song title let's live "Like the river flow". 

I think I have speak too much in this entry. I just wanna said thanks to my mother, thanks you allow me to born in this world. Even though we always have love-hate relationship recently, I feel happy you become my mother. To my ex-girlfriends, I don't know where are you, but thanks because you teach me how to love someone. To my older sister, you are my mentor, I failed to protect you, sorry, even sometimes you are the one who protect me. To all my friends, thank you so much because all of you have been made these 23 years so colorful, smile and tears, we have through all of those together. I wanna continue this sacred bonds with all of you. From now on, please take care of me.


23-years-old of Andez     









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[PreOrder] SUMMARY 2011 Hey!Say! JUMP GOODS

I will go to SUMMARY at August 10 2011, so I open the chance for all of you who wanna buy SUMMARY 2011 Goodies

Deadline: August 9, 2011 (16:00 JST)
email: (this is email for my paypal too)

Terms & Conditions :


1. All prices stated DO NOT include shipping cost from Japan to your place (I live in Japan).

2. International customers are welcome , I ship internationally.
3. In reality of any item be OOS (Out of Stock) situation , full refund will be made.
4. Prices stated are fixed. However fluctuation exchange rate may change the pricing. 

5. Full payment is to be made in order to secure your items.

6. No items will be reserve without full payment is in.

7. All goods origin from Japan .
8. No cancellation/refund after payment will be entertained.
9. I will send the goodies at August 20, 2011. For arrival date, you can expect it by yourself according your country.
10. Please read T&Cs.


1. Paypal in USD, 5% of paypal fees to be borne by buyers.

2. For Indonesian buyers who want buy the goodies but don't have Paypal, you can do local bank transfer in Indonesia, just tell me, I will PM you the bank account number. Fixed rate for currency: (USD 1 = Rp 9000,00)

Shipping :
I will shipping all your items with EMS service from Japan to your home. The cost will be different for every country destination. The fixed cost will be determined when I know your address. We will talk in email or PM about this for further detail. Items will be shipped out once shipping is paid. I am not not responsible for any lost / damaged / stolen items through the mail. I will only track for orders with tracking numbers available.


Pamphlet : USD 32

Mini Uchiwa (9 members): @USD 9

T-shirt : USD 45

Clearfile: USD 12

Marker (example HERE): USD 9

Original Photoset (9 members): @USD 13

Totebag: USD 25

Penlight: USD 30

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Fanreport: 9nine (Kawashima Umika) New single release event July 22 @Hiroshima

I was arrived in Alice Garden, 9nine live venue in Hiroshima about 16.10. I saw some of oldman and some of men that I assume they are 9nine's big fan, since they bring many supporting goods. I stand in the front of stage, the closest point from stage. The stage is small enough. Then, suddenly, 9nine appear from the right side of the stage! I was surprised because the event supposed to be started at 17.30. But when 9nine appear in stage, my eyes just focus to see Umika, and I am still can't believe "Is she Umika? Is she a true Umika? Am I dreaming?". Because UMIKA is very cute! It's really different from TV, very cute, beautiful, I am speechless. Then, 9nine sing "Natsu Wanna Say Love You". No, they were not singing it until the end. I just realized that for rehearsal only. Because after that, they talked to staff like "the background music is too slow" or like "we are fine to dance in this stage". Other members are cute too, really. But my eyes can't separate with Umika. Actually, UMIKA IS SMALL and SHORT! /kicked by Umika. After rehearsal, they greet the fans, at that time, the fans were still a few, so I was easily get Umika attention. Moreover I bring CALPIS, then I wear Bloody Monday clothes. Umika is smiling at me while pointing Calpis and my clothes. I AM DYING!

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I'm bleeding

- Well, today is holiday, no class, no kendo practice. Because there is huge typhoon in Hiroshima. According to Japanese meteorology institution, the typhoon will be continued until tomorrow. Moreover, the typhoon is bigger in tomorrow. Maybe the class would be cancelled tomorrow too. And it would become my another hikikomori's day.

- Recently, THIS PROBLEM hurt me so much. I can't sleep properly. And thinking about this for whole days. I need your help friends, if you can, please do so. But I won't force you, do something as you can. And I would be thank to you for my whole life.
Me now. Not really true, but this explain the general situation.

- Chinen Yuuri wants duet with Justin Bieber? It would be cute. They have same age..but of course my Chinen is cuter than JB.../stabbed by JB fans. and Yamada wants act together with Johnny Depp? You get influenced by Yuuto, dear?

- 3 days before I meet with Umika. I'm looking forward for it. Hope I can shake her hands.

-  And, seriously, this is Shouta? OMG, I am falling in love with him again...<3